Difficulty in the Face of Adversity
It is 11 am. I am on my way to class in my car and all I can think about is how badly I am failing the class, how I lost my job, and how my relationship is based on lies. I pull in and sit in the parking lot for a second thinking about everything wrong with my life till I can’t bear it anymore. I back out of the parking spot and tear off. Life sucks anyway, why not go get high?
The drive goes quickly partially because I’m already a bit high and mostly because I’m driving 20 miles over the speed limit blasting “Negative Creep” by Nirvana. I pull off the exit and paranoia sets in. I’m looking up and down each street looking for squad cars. I pull up a block away from the spot and sit for a second to look around and make sure I didn’t miss any squad cars.
I walk up the street to a man I have never met before and ask him for 5.…
A few minutes later a car pulls up and a hand comes out of the window.
I walk up the street to a man I have never met before and ask him for 5. He tells me to wait right there. A few minutes later a car pulls up and a hand comes out of the window. I hand them the cash and they hand me 5 bags.
I walk back and get into my car…. You know what happens next.
This was a daily occurrence for me. I would be faced with some problem and no matter how small it was, it gave me a reason to use drugs. Part of it might have been I couldn’t face my life or I really just needed an excuse for the fact I was steering my life off a cliff.
Fast forward a few years and my life is a completely different scene. I have a car, a house and I support myself. What changed was only a few years prior, the idea of making payments or being responsible for anything but my habit would have thrown me into a tailspin.
I found people who would work with me like I was a person and not use a textbook definition for a junkie or drug addict. They helped me solve my problems and figure out how to be responsible for more and more. I learned the skills I needed and was missing. I became responsible. Handling the things in my life that made me run to drugs is what gave me closure on the messed up chapter of my life.
If any of this jumps out at you or you find yourself or a loved one living this way, please take a second and look into Narconon as an option for yourself or your loved one. I know you won't regret it.
