I Put My All Into this Program
I feel as though I’ve come a long way since day one. I came into Narconon very sick and didn’t believe I could get through it. On my first night in Withdrawal, I felt like a zombie. I was barely able to function. I was sad, angry, and hated my life choices. I had a hard time sleeping; I didn’t want to talk, eat, walk or do anything that a normal functioning human does. With every day came different emotions and feelings, both physical and emotional. After the first couple of days, I gained more strength and motivation. It was hard at times to want to keep pushing, but I knew I had to. I could get past challenging times and was ready to stay motivated to live a better and clean life, so I never had to go through those nights again. I knew I had already made progress completing Withdrawal, but I had no idea how far I had to go. The Withdrawal specialists played a significant role in getting me through it.
After completing Withdrawal, I went on to the New Life Detoxification (sauna). At first, I doubted the results I might get, but sure enough, after twenty-nine hot, sweaty days, I felt like a whole new person physically. I was sleeping better, had the energy of a kid, and ate more than ever. The Sauna staff did a great job of being there and making it so much easier. My body feels great, and I can think more clearly as if I had never touched a drug before. I knew I no longer needed drugs to suppress my emotions with drugs and could live a happy life with a sober state of mind.
At first, I didn’t know what to expect from Objectives. I had heard the point of it before but never quite understood. When starting, I got very agitated easily and wanted to give up. Eventually, I began to notice that all my focus was on the Objective, and I was in present time for the first time. My mind wasn’t wandering off or stressing about anything. It felt great to open my mind, realize a lot of things, and get it off my chest. It felt even better to be able to regain abilities I never realized I’d lost. I became more patient and noticed I was able to be in present time, in and out of the course room. The Supervisor was great and became a mentor to me. I had a fantastic twin to go through it with.
Thanks to the Life Skills Supervisors, I gained a lot out of Life Skills. I was able to handle my past in the Ups and Downs course. I obtained an increased responsibility level through Personal Values, and I could see the damage I caused and the my wrongdoings, intentionally and unintentionally. I became more aware of things I do that are harmful. I can now go on in life having addressed my harmful actions, taking responsibility for them, and avoiding doing those harmful things again. Through the course, I saw the harm I cause myself not only by doing drugs but the dangerous situations I put myself in. I can see how much damage I caused to my family and loved ones with the things I’ve withheld, lies I’ve told, and rude things I’ve said. In the Conditions course, I saw what I was doing to myself and others by being a liability. I was able to work my way out of that condition and move forward, living a better life.
“I can live life sober and have the tools to make the right choices and stay on the right path.”
I want to thank all the staff that worked with me along the way. I want to thank my twin for going through it with me since day one and all the other friends I made along the way. I appreciate all of you. Know that you will get out what you put in during this program. I can live life sober and have the tools to make the right choices and stay on the right path.
C.P., Narconon Graduate