Finally Found the Real Me

L.H. Narconon Graduate
L.H. Narconon Graduate

One day I was on the phone with my mom. She asked me if I was doing okay and asked that I not lie to her. I said I was fine. The next day I was driving to work high. I ended up nodding out at the wheel and flipped my truck eight times and went straight to jail for a few days. I later bailed myself out and admitted to my mom I had lied. I told her I wasn’t fine and needed help but I didn’t want a program that traded one drug for another. My mom found Narconon.

When I arrived, I had hit rock bottom yet again. One of the staff walked me across the yard in the rain and into withdrawal. I looked around the room, and the first thing that popped into my head was, “What the hell have I gotten myself into?” Little did I know the withdrawal process I was about to go through would be the easiest. The mental exercises and assists helped a ton. After completing withdrawal, it was time for the sauna detoxification step.

I got into sauna, and it was hot. During sauna, I started to experience some old back pain, and my ole iron hip was acting up. But I was able to push through. When I finished sauna, I remember feeling so accomplished. I felt right. Back in the day, I was always one to tap out when stuff got tough, but I did it—I got through it. Next was Objectives.

When I started Objectives, there were a ton of things I wasn’t ready to face and many things that came up in realizations I had never even thought of facing. I got a ton of wins from Objectives, but my main ones would be not having to focus on the past anymore, comfortably being in present time, and sticking to something without quitting.

I started seeing things for how they really were. I saw my own wrongdoings and that was something I’d never seen before. I knew going to Narconon was the right choice. For so long I was spun out of control and had no control. Through Objectives, I regained control and realized Fentanyl didn’t control me.

After completing Objectives, I went on to Life Skills. This is where I got to look at myself and take a deep dive into my life. It was amazing to hear my family and friends say how proud they were of me. Looking back on the things I harmed and caused, I gained a newfound sense of responsibility doing the Personal Values Course. Last was where I figured out who I am and then I worked my way out of being a liability to my family, relationships, and groups. It was so rewarding. I’ve never felt like that in my life before.

“I've been to 12-step rehabs and nothing had worked for me like this program has.”

Before I came to Narconon, my life was an absolute train wreck. But I worked hard and am so proud of myself. My relationship with my family has improved tremendously. We now have the best communication and relationship. I see how my choices not only affected me but others. I couldn’t have done it alone. For so long I lived with tunnel vision. I forgot what it was like to live my own life, make my own decisions, and better myself. I didn’t realize how destructive I was being to my own survival. I was deteriorating. I’ve been to 12-step rehabs and nothing had worked for me like this program has. The courses here helped me repair everything that I have damaged within myself, my family, and my friends.

Thank you to all the staff for helping me through each step of the program and helping me find out who I am. Thank you, Narconon, for saving my life. I will never forget it.

Don’t choose to give up on yourself. There is always help out there. The outcome of getting help is a lot better than staying on drugs. There are only two ways out of drug addiction; getting help or death, all you have to do is want it.

L.H. Narconon Graduate


Alina Snowden

Originally from Kentucky, Alina decided after changing her life that she wanted to help others understand the dangers of addiction and help families know what to do if their loved one is struggling. She now writes articles to spread awareness and positivity about how those with addiction problems can turn their lives around.