Finally Found the Real Me
One day I was on the phone with my mom. She asked me if I was doing okay and asked that I not lie to her. I said I was fine. The next day I was driving to work high. I ended up nodding out at the wheel and flipped my truck eight times and went straight to jail for a few days. I later bailed myself out and admitted to my mom I had lied. I told her I wasn’t fine and needed help but I didn’t want a program that traded one drug for another. My mom found Narconon.
When I arrived, I had hit rock bottom yet again. One of the staff walked me across the yard in the rain and into withdrawal. I looked around the room, and the first thing that popped into my head was, “What the hell have I gotten myself into?” Little did I know the withdrawal process I was about to go through would be the easiest. The mental exercises and assists helped a ton. After completing withdrawal, it was time for the sauna detoxification step.
I got into sauna, and it was hot. During sauna, I started to experience some old back pain, and my ole iron hip was acting up. But I was able to push through. When I finished sauna, I remember feeling so accomplished. I felt right. Back in the day, I was always one to tap out when stuff got tough, but I did it—I got through it. Next was Objectives.
When I started Objectives, there were a ton of things I wasn’t ready to face and many things that came up in realizations I had never even thought of facing. I got a ton of wins from Objectives, but my main ones would be not having to focus on the past anymore, comfortably being in present time, and sticking to something without quitting.
I started seeing things for how they really were. I saw my own wrongdoings and that was something I’d never seen before. I knew going to Narconon was the right choice. For so long I was spun out of control and had no control. Through Objectives, I regained control and realized Fentanyl didn’t control me.
After completing Objectives, I went on to Life Skills. This is where I got to look at myself and take a deep dive into my life. It was amazing to hear my family and friends say how proud they were of me. Looking back on the things I harmed and caused, I gained a newfound sense of responsibility doing the Personal Values Course. Last was where I figured out who I am and then I worked my way out of being a liability to my family, relationships, and groups. It was so rewarding. I’ve never felt like that in my life before.
“I've been to 12-step rehabs and nothing had worked for me like this program has.”
Before I came to Narconon, my life was an absolute train wreck. But I worked hard and am so proud of myself. My relationship with my family has improved tremendously. We now have the best communication and relationship. I see how my choices not only affected me but others. I couldn’t have done it alone. For so long I lived with tunnel vision. I forgot what it was like to live my own life, make my own decisions, and better myself. I didn’t realize how destructive I was being to my own survival. I was deteriorating. I’ve been to 12-step rehabs and nothing had worked for me like this program has. The courses here helped me repair everything that I have damaged within myself, my family, and my friends.
Thank you to all the staff for helping me through each step of the program and helping me find out who I am. Thank you, Narconon, for saving my life. I will never forget it.
Don’t choose to give up on yourself. There is always help out there. The outcome of getting help is a lot better than staying on drugs. There are only two ways out of drug addiction; getting help or death, all you have to do is want it.
L.H. Narconon Graduate
