I Have My Life Back

Sober man at airport
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When I first arrived here two months ago. I was in the worst shape I’ve ever been. I was a mess and had hit my rock bottom. I hid my addiction pretty well, but I’d grown tired of my ways. I didn’t think I needed rehab for a while because I didn’t do drugs; it would be fine.

In just a few months, I’d had a few of the worst drunken blackout unconscious incidents I’d ever had. I was definitely at my lowest point, feeling lost and hopeless. I was confused why I couldn’t just stop or control my drinking. And for the first time in the 11 or 12 years of excessive drinking, my kids and closest family all knew what a mess I was. I was so embarrassed and full of shame, regret, fear, and worry.

It was finally time to come to Narconon—and I’d heard from several people that Narconon Louisiana, was the one to come to, and they were right!! Choosing to come here was a fantastic experience. I knew I was going to be okay.

The first few days were awful. I wasn’t physically withdrawing, but I was crawling out of my skin.

The first week of the sauna was also rough. Emotions I’d shut off for so long with alcohol came flooding back—plus, being isolated in the middle of nowhere surrounded by drug addicts, I was forced to face the full extent of how low I had allowed myself and my life to sink to.

But then, about a week and a half into sauna, the fog started to lift, and the alcohol, drugs, and toxins started to come out. And I started to be myself with a clean body and clean mind. In the last few days, I knew I’d done it right. The constant noise in my head and the worry and “conversations” I’d have with everyone I wished I could tell to; all those went away. I felt back in the present.

But the real magic happened for me in life skills. This is where I discovered the source of all my “unresolvable” massive problems and began to spot how I had created them or made them much, much worse. I found where I created antagonism and was able to take more responsibility. Life skills is where I pulled the string of the tangled yarn of my life. I was confused for so long and found myself going in circles, and everything was out of control. I got to the bottom of some “ah ha” moments and realized I had created many of the problems I was mad about. I continued to pull that yarn, go back to my childhood, look at everything, and take responsibility from there.

“I’m excited about my life and where it is going and being able to go home and live my life sober. I feel like I have a new life and my life back. I’m ready to go home and flourish!”

I was able to dig myself out of the hole I’d put myself into. I’m excited about my life and where it is going and being able to go home and live my life sober. I feel like I have a new life and my life back. I’m ready to go home and flourish!

L.W. Narconon Graduate


Alina Snowden

Originally from Kentucky, Alina decided after changing her life that she wanted to help others understand the dangers of addiction and help families know what to do if their loved one is struggling. She now writes articles to spread awareness and positivity about how those with addiction problems can turn their lives around.