I Love Myself for Who I Am

 

Coming here was a choice I made and was one of the best choices I have made for myself in the last many, many years.

When I arrived, I was brittle, physically and emotionally broken, and couldn’t sleep. I was at the point where I hated who I was as a woman, my body, my brain, and all the things I had put my loved ones through.

Detox was so hard for me. But I was grateful for the Withdrawal Specialists who kept me laughing, were rays of sunshine, and continued pushing me. I didn’t sleep for many days. But finally, I got better and was able to move on to the next step.

Sauna was by far my favorite part of the program. Despite all my ups and downs, the staff kept their cool and helped me through it. I went from hardly sleeping to sleeping from 10 pm to 6 am toward the end of sauna.

At first, I did not understand Objectives, but now I get the process. This was great to think about how doing simple things helps you in other aspects of your life. I owe a huge thanks to my twin for sticking by my side even after our upsets.

Life Skills was very difficult for me. I wanted to give up so many times. I even would yell at staff, hoping they would give up on me so I could fail, but they never did. Words would never express how grateful I am for the staff working with me during my tornado-rollercoaster of emotions. During this course, I got to start talking to my kids again. I have two younger boys, and it took three months for them to speak to me, but once I was open regarding my situation, that’s when they started to talk to me. I was so used to always blaming others; to hear that I was taking responsibility for my poor choices was great.

“Most of that I genuinely love myself as a woman, as a mom, as a wife, and as a grandma. Mostly, I can love my life
and the things around me.”

This program has taught me that I have a choice and can communicate my feelings. Most of that I genuinely love myself as a woman, as a mom, as a wife, and as a grandma. Mostly, I can love my life and the things around me.

Thank you to all the staff for being so amazing and not giving up on me.

K.B., Narconon Graduate