I’m Living for a Future

 

I felt cowardly for not seeking help before my younger brother. So, I decided to use because I couldn’t fight it anymore. My family found me, and I was out of it. I had tried to get to a safe spot. My tolerance had decreased, and I used what I usually did before I stopped. But I quickly learned it was too much. I blacked out and woke up in the ambulance, but I knew what had happened; I’d overdosed. At that point, I knew it was time for treatment. I would end up hurting myself or someone else if I didn’t go. I chose Narconon because I saw how great my brother was doing and knew I needed to save myself.

Withdrawal is never fun, but with the help of the withdrawal specialists, they made it as comfortable as it could have possibly been. Sauna got me feeling better in record time. This was an irritable and touchy time, but thankfully with the help of the Sauna staff, I got through it.

It was later, during Objectives, when I had one of my biggest wins. My twin and I were doing the 3rd one, and he asked me if I felt great. I said hell yea! I also found clarity in Objectives. I recalled things much quicker after Objectives and realized I was back in control of myself for the first time in a long time. I started working out, having more energy, and gaining the confidence I’d long suppressed.

Personal values then helped me set the guidelines I will need on the outside to help me with my sobriety.

“Now I have a fresh start. Trust must be earned, but I’m at a point where I can earn it back.”

Now I have a fresh start. Trust must be earned, but I’m at a point where I can earn it back. My brother and my relationship are much better now. When he got home, there was a massive wedge between us. I had tried hiding my drug use before, but he knew. I’d lost all trust from my parents before going to Narconon, but now they are happy for me. They think I can have a positive future. For so long, they saw me going nowhere, and now they’re not only proud of me, but my brother too.

Now I feel like I’m living for a future instead of letting the dope drive me. I know I stand a fighting chance against my battle with addiction. I feel more responsible and have self-confidence and more self-discipline. When I was using, I didn’t care. Now I do; I care about others and myself. For so long, I gave up on myself but now, there’s no going back.

If anyone relates to this, get help in any way you can. Try to find a former addict and see how they could get clean and stay clean. You must get help when you’re ready for it. I chose Narconon because I knew they must have something figured out. Narconon gave me the tools I need and has given me insights on things I could not see before. I haven’t thought like this in a long time. This methodology works. It saved not only me but also my brother and my family.

J.A., Narconon Graduate