Putting My Past Behind Me

 

Before coming to Narconon, I acted like I didn't care about anything. All my life, all I knew was incarceration and how to be fearless, cold, and emotionless on the outside.

After I arrived and when I was in withdrawal, I felt awful, but I pushed through. By the end of it, I felt better and was ready to get sober. I went into the sauna New Life Detox, and felt numb. I thought I could not feel human emotions. One of the guys helped me through the tough times. There were days during sauna that I did not want to go, but I did, and it was well worth it. I then started feeling clearer-minded and felt I could feel happy. I sweated  the drugs and toxic residues out of my body and felt wonderful when I finished.

After New Life Detox, I went on to Objectives and was twinned with a guy who was with me through sauna. He and I motivated each other, especially when we had a hard time. There were times I didn't think I would make it. But, by the end of the Objectives, I felt I had accomplished something and gained a lot of patience.

I then went on to Life Skills and wrote my life story. I did my handling with my family and took responsibility for things I did. It made me feel a lot better, and then I got to take responsibility for all the harm I’ve done to myself and the other aspects of my life. I relived all the cringy moments of my life, and after seeing it all, I realized I’m no longer that person. I got to the root of my drug use and fixed my ways of thinking to stay away from the person I used to be. I cut ties with my best friend, who was like my brother, I knew I couldn’t fall back into my old life.

“Today that person I used to be is a stranger to me. Narconon brought out the person I truly am.”

Today that person I used to be is a stranger to me. Narconon brought out the person I truly am. And I am forever thankful for Narconon, showing me who I truly am and putting that demon I used to be in the past.

J.J., Narconon Graduate