What Is It Like to be a Crack Addict?
“Being addicted to crack is probably one of the most torturing things in the world. For me, it was a never-ending cycle of working to get money somehow and then smoking crack until there was no money left. I wound up putting aside everything for this one drug.
“Smoking crack degraded me to the point where I couldn't handle my money or any basic functions in life. I went from someone who at least on the outside had it made to someone who was living out of a shed. The funny thing about it was, I remember smoking crack and feeling so internally tortured but for some reason, I would just keep doing more and more. One Thanksgiving I smoked crack and threw up. I felt terrible, but I would get a real quick rush so for a couple seconds everything was ok. Then I crashed down real hard.
“I would get depressed and think about all the things that sucked in my life. Then I would smoke more crack giving another short feeling of relief like life was better. I hated myself because I knew I shouldn’t be using making me feel like a dirt bag. But I couldn’t stop, no matter how mad I was at myself.
“I struggled with other substances throughout my life, but mentally and emotionally, crack took the cake on how bad life got for me; the turmoil it created, the constant up and down not to mention the hole in my pocket that would hemorrhage money.
“I smoked crack to the point I had no hot water or electricity in my house. I quit paying my rent and eventually ended up living in a shed. Nothing was sacred anymore…”
“I smoked crack to the point I had no hot water or electricity in my house. I quit paying my rent and eventually ended up living in a shed. Nothing was sacred anymore.
“When I started, I was a manager at a company responsible for over 30 employees. I had a beautiful condo in Miami, a fiancé and a three year-old son I took care of. I had a pretty good life, and I enjoyed life for what it was. I had money to spare, a nice car and all the things that would make others impressed.
“I had so many opportunities in the position I was in and I threw everything away to smoke crack. My fiancé left me, I lost my son, I sold my cars, literally everything I had. I even gave away a custom gold wedding band that my father had given me for my wedding. Perhaps the dumbest thing was when I would trade something for crack, then instantly regret it.
“I was responsible for a 30 person company and all the employees. Meanwhile, I was smoking crack in the bathroom at night and living out of a shed. Looking back it still amazes me the amount of money and opportunities I lost to crack. If I hadn't gotten into treatment for crack addiction when I did, things could have gotten really bad. Who knows where I would have ended up.
“If you need help for someone smoking crack please get help for them before it is to late.”
—L.N. Narconon Graduate