A Letter from a Loving Wife
Losing someone you love is one of the worst things that can happen to a person, especially when you lose someone you spend every day with, and when they lose their life at a young age. With the opiate epidemic in full swing, this happens to families across the country each day. One woman wanted to share her story with the hopes of preventing others from going through the same pain she experienced. This is her letter.
“I ask myself a lot, ’who am I?’ I am a mother, wife, sister, aunt, daughter, friend and now a woman in grief. Aside from being a mother, one of my biggest joys was being a wife to my best friend. I am now a widow at the age of 32. The day I lost my beloved husband was not only the worst day of my entire existence, but the day my life would be changed forever. Grief for me is like living two lives—one that makes me scream silently in pain every day and the other is knowing I will never get over the loss of my husband. I cannot pretend my life will be what it once was. I will never be the same. When he died, a piece of me died with him.
“I found my husband’s lifeless body early that morning. He didn’t come to bed that night. We kissed goodnight and said, ’I love you’. Those were my last words to him. Little did I know I would be living in a nightmare. When the first-responders came, I refused to believe he was gone. I begged and pleaded for them to revive him, that my CPR was working. They said there was nothing more they could do as they pulled me off his body. I couldn’t believe that he was gone. There was no way. It took weeks for the initial shock to wear off and the reality of his absence to set in. Through my pain and anguish, I am able to find some level of grace to write this in the hope of helping others and to shed light on how powerful addiction is.
“My husband died of a lethal amount of fentanyl in his system. Reported cases of fentanyl overdoses have skyrocketed across our country. The statistics are staggering and not going down. Fentanyl is 50 times stronger than morphine, which makes it incredibly dangerous to use.
“If an addict takes this drug, chances are great that he or she will overdose. It can be laced in other drugs as well. If this epidemic is not taken seriously, then more families like mine are going to lose the people, they love the most.
“I pray that whoever is reading this—addict or not—knows there is help. No one needs to die from this. I know my husband did not choose this, and it was an accidental overdose, but his death ripped both our families apart. It has opened wounds I don’t know will ever heal. He was a kind, compassionate, nurturing soul and I will live the rest of my life missing him. So now it’s my turn to give back even if it is sharing this story in order to help just one person.”
– Loving Wife
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