Finally Found What True Happiness Is

 

Whew, what journey this has been. Not long ago, this day seemed forever away, but here I am.

Before I arrived at Narconon, I was lost. I didn’t know who I was. I had no purpose and no goals. All I did was work, play games, and get high. I pushed most people who cared about me away and spent most of my time alone in my room. I thought to be happy; I had to be alone. I told myself I was only happy when I was alone. It turns out I was wrong.

I was asked if I wanted to go to Narconon on February 28th and I said yes. I was there the next day. At first, I was nervous. Being in a new place surrounded by new people was not my ideal setting. On top of that, I knew I was about to start withdrawing, which worried me too. I quickly became friends with the first person I met. Then I saw more people and didn’t feel so alone. The first three or four days were rough. I was miserable, but they helped me through it. After that, each day, I got a little better. I was able to sleep more, eat more, and start gaining weight. By the time I was out, I felt better than I had in a long time. Then came sauna.

The first two weeks of sauna were rough. My restless legs got bad again, my sleep became a challenge, and I started feeling crappy. But as time went on, it got better. I began to think more clearly and be more active, and the restless legs went away towards the end. By the time I was done, I felt like a new person.

The next part was Objectives. Objectives was probably one of the most frustrating parts, but I also feel like I got a lot out of it. My twin taught me patience. I don’t remember exactly when, but around Objective 5 or 6, I started to look inward and learn things about myself I didn’t want to face and had weighed heavy on me for so long. As I talked about some of my problems with my friends, the weight began to lift. After years of feeling constantly anxious and unable to relax fully, it changed in a week or so. I started not to feel so lost. I was learning about myself and with that came better sleep. I went from sleeping three to six hours a night to six to ten hours a night. And to me, that was one of my biggest wins. Finally, being able to relax and get a good night’s sleep.

Lastly came life skills. This was the part that both excited me and scared me the most. But that was the part I got the most out of. I learned so much about myself and how I screwed up my life and my relationships. I also learned how to repair the ones that were good for me as well as identify the ones that were bad for me and disconnect from them.

“My sister and I started talking more than I thought we would. I was able to bring up things to mom that we needed to discuss, and I was able to rebuild my relationship with my dad.”

My sister and I started talking more than I thought we would. I was able to bring up things to my mom that we needed to discuss, and I was able to rebuild my relationship with my dad. I was also able not only to see where I messed up, but I was able to take responsibility for it. Then I learned about my conditions in life and how to not only identify them but how to use formulas to improve them.

Overall, this program helped me in more ways than I could have imagined. Five months ago, I never would have thought or dreamed I would be where I am today. And I couldn’t have done it alone. I know I was rough to deal with at times, but I am forever thankful to all of you for pushing me and helping me through it.

Everyone somehow, directly or indirectly, plays a part in me standing where I am today. And because of that, I can say I did it. And I’m going to make it. I know the road ahead won’t be all sunshine and butterflies, but I’m now confident that whatever life throws me, I can face it head-on and drug-free. I’m going to miss everyone and wish everyone the best.

I.M. Narconon Graduate