Finally Found What True Happiness Is

I.M. Narconon Graduate
I.M. Narconon Graduate

Whew, what journey this has been. Not long ago, this day seemed forever away, but here I am.

Before I arrived at Narconon, I was lost. I didn’t know who I was. I had no purpose and no goals. All I did was work, play games, and get high. I pushed most people who cared about me away and spent most of my time alone in my room. I thought to be happy; I had to be alone. I told myself I was only happy when I was alone. It turns out I was wrong.

I was asked if I wanted to go to Narconon on February 28th and I said yes. I was there the next day. At first, I was nervous. Being in a new place surrounded by new people was not my ideal setting. On top of that, I knew I was about to start withdrawing, which worried me too. I quickly became friends with the first person I met. Then I saw more people and didn’t feel so alone. The first three or four days were rough. I was miserable, but they helped me through it. After that, each day, I got a little better. I was able to sleep more, eat more, and start gaining weight. By the time I was out, I felt better than I had in a long time. Then came sauna.

The first two weeks of sauna were rough. My restless legs got bad again, my sleep became a challenge, and I started feeling crappy. But as time went on, it got better. I began to think more clearly and be more active, and the restless legs went away towards the end. By the time I was done, I felt like a new person.

The next part was Objectives. Objectives was probably one of the most frustrating parts, but I also feel like I got a lot out of it. My twin taught me patience. I don’t remember exactly when, but around Objective 5 or 6, I started to look inward and learn things about myself I didn’t want to face and had weighed heavy on me for so long. As I talked about some of my problems with my friends, the weight began to lift. After years of feeling constantly anxious and unable to relax fully, it changed in a week or so. I started not to feel so lost. I was learning about myself and with that came better sleep. I went from sleeping three to six hours a night to six to ten hours a night. And to me, that was one of my biggest wins. Finally, being able to relax and get a good night’s sleep.

Lastly came life skills. This was the part that both excited me and scared me the most. But that was the part I got the most out of. I learned so much about myself and how I screwed up my life and my relationships. I also learned how to repair the ones that were good for me as well as identify the ones that were bad for me and disconnect from them.

“My sister and I started talking more than I thought we would. I was able to bring up things to mom that we needed to discuss, and I was able to rebuild my relationship with my dad.”

My sister and I started talking more than I thought we would. I was able to bring up things to my mom that we needed to discuss, and I was able to rebuild my relationship with my dad. I was also able not only to see where I messed up, but I was able to take responsibility for it. Then I learned about my conditions in life and how to not only identify them but how to use formulas to improve them.

Overall, this program helped me in more ways than I could have imagined. Five months ago, I never would have thought or dreamed I would be where I am today. And I couldn’t have done it alone. I know I was rough to deal with at times, but I am forever thankful to all of you for pushing me and helping me through it.

Everyone somehow, directly or indirectly, plays a part in me standing where I am today. And because of that, I can say I did it. And I’m going to make it. I know the road ahead won’t be all sunshine and butterflies, but I’m now confident that whatever life throws me, I can face it head-on and drug-free. I’m going to miss everyone and wish everyone the best.

I.M. Narconon Graduate


Alina Snowden

Originally from Kentucky, Alina decided after changing her life that she wanted to help others understand the dangers of addiction and help families know what to do if their loved one is struggling. She now writes articles to spread awareness and positivity about how those with addiction problems can turn their lives around.