Finding My Passion

 

Before coming to Narconon, I was driving to reach my drug dealer. I was angry and agitated because she wasn’t picking up or answering me. I couldn’t get my fix, and I was losing it. I got arrested and finally told my parents what was going on. I had almost told them once before, but I had reached my breaking point and knew I needed help this time. The night before coming to rehab, I smoked the last of my meth. I then threw my pipes and everything away and arrived at Narconon. I knew all I had to do was trust the program.

Narconon has been nothing short of a success for me. From withdrawal to life skills, I had wins the whole way. My biggest wins in withdrawal were being comfortable in the place I was at and, most importantly, being comfortable in my body without drugs.

Then I moved on to the sauna New Life Detoxification, and I loved it! The detoxification process caused me to feel all sorts of emotions. I was very emotional at the beginning and confronted those emotions, and then by the end, I was waking up cheerfully greeting the others on the detox program.

I am a morning guy now, and I am getting back in shape. I built some connections while in the sauna, and one of them was a guy who was my twin on Objectives. He and I both want the same thing, to be happy and sober. So we took that mentality over to the Objectives room and got the most out of it.

I now can communicate better, and I understand the importance of communication. Also, I learned the value of being in the present time. I left Objectives in control of myself and put myself first in my life. I took all of my wins and regained abilities, and they gave me the power to conquer life skills and confront all of my destruction from the past.

One of the first things I did on life skills was to write letters to my loved ones. I took responsibility for all the harm I caused them and myself. It went so well that four out of the five cried in appreciation. From that, my family and I are closer now. We’ve always been close, but I distanced myself from them when I was using. As a result, our relationship has grown even stronger, and that felt amazing!

I had to get honest with myself by taking responsibility for everything I did. Man, that was a lot of writing. It’s all worth it, though. When you let go of everything you have been bottling up, you would not believe how much lighter and free you feel. Last but not least, conditions gave me the formulas to look at the person I was and gave me the ability to produce the person I want to be, the man I am today. I also helped a student that has some similar struggles to me. I also have been accepted again by the group and my family. I am a normal man now.

“If you feel there is no escaping addiction, know you are wrong. You have to want to help yourself. It all starts with you, and you have to put the effort in and try. You have to want it and apply yourself
to be successful.”

This program has me feeling better than I ever have. I did not just walk through it, though, I worked hard and had ups and downs, but I kept pushing because that is the only way to get the most out of anything you do. I’m positive and realized being a “negative Nancy” isn’t a good time. If you feel there is no escaping addiction, know you are wrong. You have to want to help yourself. It all starts with you, and you have to put the effort in and try. You have to want it and apply yourself to be successful.

I want to thank Narconon, all the staff, the students, and my parents for helping me on my journey to be happy and sober. The Narconon staff genuinely care, and the program works; you have to let it work. I don’t know what my future holds. I’m searching for my passion, but I’m in a good place to find it.

—C.C. Narconon Graduate