I’m Ready to Move Forward and Live Life Sober
Coming into Narconon was a very uncertain time for me. I didn’t know what to expect. I was scared to be away from my family for an extended period, and I didn’t even know if I wanted to be here. Moving forward in withdrawal, I did plenty of mental exercises and learned how to confront comfortably and to be here comfortably. My anxiety subsided then, and I knew I would be here for the long haul.
Starting sauna, I settled in and started interacting with other students, which helped me feel somewhat normal again. It helped me realize that I was not alone in the fact that everyone here has regrets and situations they have created that they are not proud of. Navigating the sauna course was pretty straightforward. Show up every day, take your supplements, and sweat out the very core of who you think you are. Moving forward, you understand just how bad drugs had a hold on your mind and body and how those drugs molded you as a person. How much my mind and body changed throughout my sauna journey was astonishing.
“I was pleasantly surprised to see my IQ jump almost 20 points from when I arrived, and I learned that I was of clear body and mind.”
My senses came back, such as smell, taste, and touch. My emotional state stabilized, and I was pleased to have a refreshed, rejuvenated, and seemingly brand-new sober mind and body. I was pleasantly surprised to see my IQ jump almost 20 points from when I arrived, and I learned that I was of clear body and mind.
From that point, moving into Objectives, I was excited, no longer nervous, and eager to progress and change, ready to start digging into my addiction and confront my issues. That lasted for about five or six objectives, and I asked, “What am I doing?”. I was writing down things that come to mind seemingly irrelevant to present time or anything I thought beneficial. Multiple times, I was ready to leave and get out of the uncomfortable feeling that running the Objectives caused me.
Until I had a life-altering realization, everything at that point came into place like a puzzle that had been in freefall for a solid month, landing perfectly into my mind. I understood that the point of all this is to stir up our minds so that we can notice these triggers and efficiently and effectively deal with them without foreign chemicals numbing the brain, which is how our addiction was set in our minds, to begin with.
Objectives were super crucial for me to understand communication.
After Objectives, I found myself in life skills doing the Ups and Downs course. After that was Personal Values; writing down all the wrongdoing I’d done across all aspects of my life was extremely difficult. This is where you handle the destructive things you have done throughout life to those around you and yourself. Picking apart my life and writing down or just thinking about these happenings was tough but necessary. In writing them down, I had to confront them honestly and couldn’t ignore them and store them away in my mind’s dark, dusty closet. But after digging through and facing them, I felt a sense of freedom that was superior to most.
Lastly came Conditions, which I got the most out of by far. Conditions allowed me to analyze the conditions of life I had created and offered a formula to work and mold these conditions back in positivity to increase how I will continue to live gradually. Applying this formula and writing new ethical and moral conditions to take with me and read daily will help ensure that I always remember where I came from and where I want to go.
“Sobriety and recovery, along with just life in general, can and will present problems along the way, and that is why it is so vital to comfortably confront them so that your path to success does not get thrown off course.”
In closing, I will leave you with this. Sobriety and recovery, along with just life in general, can and will present problems along the way, and that is why it is so vital to comfortably confront them so that your path to success does not get thrown off course. So, I encourage you to continue and build a new life on a foundation of integrity with ethical behavior. Continue living in your house of reason in a unified universe of justice.
J.H. Narconon Graduate