From Father to Son—Alcoholism
Drugs and alcohol have created many problems in my life. My father had an alcohol problem since I was young. He and my mother always fought and screamed at each other. From a young age, I learned to find things to distance myself because I hated being around them or spending any time with them. This started out as little things such as watching television and playing video games, but as I got older it evolved into much bigger things.
I developed poor communication skills from isolating myself from my family and had very bad attention problems. I never did my chores or homework. I also had a hard time staying on task. It became more and more difficult for me to communicate as I got older and this resulted in a lot of self-esteem and confidence issues.
When I got into high school and found out the upperclassmen and some of my friends were drinking and doing drugs, I thought it was ok to do it. You would think because my father drank alcohol and his drinking created a bad effect on me, that I wouldn’t drink. But I found drinking alcohol temporarily fixed my problems with social anxiety and made me open up. I decided I liked who I was much better when I drank alcohol and so became dependent on it in order to have a good time.
My use of alcohol later led to drugs and my life spiraled out of control. It took a lot of time and some hard life lessons to finally realize the damage I had done not only to my life but to other people's lives.
“I now finally feel I have complete control of my life and the ability to stay drug-free for the rest of my life.”
Luckily, I now finally feel I have complete control of my life and the ability to stay drug-free for the rest of my life. I have complete control of my mind, mood, and actions. I can focus better than ever before. I can stay in the present without having meaningless, wandering thoughts. Not only can I carry out tasks more but importantly can follow through and complete them with ease. I can confront all my problems without any anxiety and without getting angry or upset.
My communication has also greatly improved, and I can communicate normally. I do not feel the need to avoid people or conversations, which means I can create relationships since I don’t shy away from using communication to sort out difficulties or disagreements with another person.
I no longer feel the need to lie, manipulate, justify or point the blame for my problems at anyone else but myself. I have complete confidence in every decision I make. For the first time in my life, I am finally happy with the person I am today, and I have a future that is under my control.
G.P. —Narconon Graduate